I mentioned a while ago that Toben's mother gave me a new prayer book that I've been doing since the beginning of the year. (Mine doesn't quite look like that; I made a pretty cover for it to match the cover I did for my prayer journal!)
Anyway, in addition to being a daily prayer guide, it also includes 12 day-long retreat models--one for each month. And one of my goals for this year is to take a day each month to retreat. I've put a day on the calendar--a school day, so I can leave when the girls go to school and be home by the time they come home. That way our weekends are still set apart for being together as a family.
I took my first retreat last Friday.
I looked and looked for places to go, but it's hard to find something close enough--I didn't want to spend an hour or two in the car--and free. I did find a place not too far away, but their suggested donation was $80 for the day. That seemed a little steep.
At the last minute, I decided to go to the coffee shop at our church. I figured I could sit all day with my Bible and not feel too out of place. The coffee shop has a big fireplace, huge windows that look out over the mountains, and soups and salads for lunch.
It was a good day, though not quite what I expected. I followed the retreat model in the book and spent a lot of time going back through the journal I write in each day during my quiet time. I noted things that had stood out to me over the past month, seeing recurring themes of things God is bringing to my attention.
The day went by so quickly; I was surprised. But it wasn't quite what I expected because I was in a public place. I'd envisioned some rest--a nap, even--more prayer (I usually pray out loud, so I didn't with so many people around), and more privacy.
I need to have a better plan in place more than a day before my next scheduled retreat. Seems like a church somewhere should have prayer rooms available for people. Seems like my church should--it's big enough!--but the person I talked to on the phone said no.
Anyway...
It was incredible to see the past month as a whole--how God has brought different things to mind and how they fit together in what he's teaching me. Isn't it amazing that in God's Word to his people, there's something just for you, just for your life and whatever circumstance you're facing? I love that.
Someone said to me recently that she doesn't think God speaks to people today. When I just smiled, she said, "What? God speaks to you?" My answer was that God doesn't speak in an audible voice--I'm not hearing things. But he does put things on my heart that I know don't come from myself.
Mostly, he speaks to me through his Word--bringing teaching or encouragement or even discipline through what the Bible says.
Much of what he's teaching me, what I saw come together as a whole during my day away, is between the two of us right now. But I will share these verses from Isaiah 61--verses that God keeps bringing to our time together:
The Year of the LORD's Favor
The Spirit of the Sovereign LORD is on me,
because the LORD has anointed me
to preach good news to the poor.
He has sent me to bind up the brokenhearted,
to proclaim freedom for the captives
and release from darkness for the prisoners,
to proclaim the year of the LORD's favor
and the day of vengeance of our God,
to comfort all who mourn,
and provide for those who grieve in Zion—
to bestow on them a crown of beauty
instead of ashes,
the oil of gladness
instead of mourning,
and a garment of praise
instead of a spirit of despair.
They will be called oaks of righteousness,
a planting of the LORD
for the display of his splendor.
They will rebuild the ancient ruins
and restore the places long devastated;
they will renew the ruined cities
that have been devastated for generations. Isaiah 61:1-4