This may sound like complaining, but it's really not. Well, maybe it is. It's too early to tell.

I realize I forgot to pick a verse for next week. I don't have one in mind, so I'll think on it and get back to you.

Oh, I slept bad. 

We usually lock Pumpkin in Emma's room at night, but that requires another litter box and makes her room smelly at times, so we've kept Pumpkin out the past two nights. Joey does not like it and chases her away every time she comes into our room. Then they tear all over the house and wake me up. It wasn't until 3:30 that they made peace and both settled down. Then the alarm went off just as it felt like I was finally nice and sound asleep. Hate that!

Especially because today is FULL. Way too full for my liking. We have Brownies after school, which means I won't be home until after 5 o'clock. And I need to leave at 10:30, which feels like a really long day. I have chapel at the seminary, then class. Plus I need to go to Curves this morning before all that.

The good news? Toben is cooking dinner and I'll come home at the end of a long day and sit down to a delicious meal I didn't have to cook. And he'll clean up too.

I've been stuck in a mess of PMS and I'm having a hard time coming out of it. I don't know why it's been so bad the past few days, but I can't seem to shake it. I feel totally sucked down into feeling gross and not having a thing to wear.

I cleaned out my closet on Saturday and feel like there's nothing left. Which I know is not true, because this is all stuff that I haven't worn in way too long, doesn't fit, or just doesn't look good on me. 

So everything left is the stuff I wear, but I feel stuck in a clothing rut--after changing clothes as many times each day as I did in high school I'm feeling like I wear the same thing again and again. What Not to Wear is coming to Denver, and my mother and I are thinking about nominating ourselves for a mother-daughter makeover. We both feel ready for change. It might just be PMS, or spring fever, or who knows what. But it's feeling like a good idea.

I've been praying the PMS prayer a lot--Please, More Spirit!--and it was good to go to church yesterday and then spend time with friends and family. To get my mind off myself, which is where it's been stuck.

You know, it just occurred to me that my life has been a little quiet lately. I've not been listening to music much--not even in the car. And that's something that helps. Note to self--put on some praise music in the car today.

On a happy note, I bought some new eyeshadow the other day at the grocery store. And it really stayed put yesterday. Even better than the expensive stuff I had been buying.

And something else? I've kept the groceries under $100 for the past few weeks. For a family of four--three meals a day. Not bad.

Oops...it's 6:40 already even though it's still DARK, DARK, DARK. I need to get the girls up for school and pack lunches and get going.

Thanks for listening.

P.S. Thanks for all the sweet 1,000 blog posts comments!

Comments

[Melissa @ Breath of Life]

Sorry you've had such a bumpy start to the week. Praying you have a better day ahead.

Love you.

[Holly B.]

Praying for God to refresh you this morning! A makeover sounds fun! What kind of eyeshadow did you get?

[Amber]

I'm having one of those weeks, too. Yuck!

And my dream is to be chosen for What Not To Wear! I love that show!

[Amanda]

Oh my gosh! I felt like I was just reading my own words about how I feel as a mom sometimes...
The closet...a friend once told me it's not that we don't have anything to wear...we don't have anything NEW to wear!
Glad I found your blog...found it thru Getting to Know you. Nice to "meet" you!
Amanda

[Puva]

"I bought some new eyeshadow the other day at the grocery store." This sentence kinda cracked me up. (:

Your birthday's very near!

[Becca]

I hate those times when you feel so blah and PMSey irritable. Hang in there, spring is coming!

[nutmeg]

I would love to see you on "What Not to Wear." New wardrobe? I say go for it!

[eva]

go for it! the what not to wear! how very brave!

i hope your pms is getting better... we all get the worst kind sometimes. but it is a part of being a woman, so i guess it is wonderful in a way.

i hope you are not too tired in the evening to enjoy your dinner.

[Priti]

I can totally connect with you on the PMS thing. Happens to me every time. Dont let it slow you down friend. I pray that God makes your day wonderful starting Now.

And that makeover sounds awesome! Go for it.

[Megan]

I've been feeling the same way the last few days. I seriously stopped and asked myself if its still possible to have PMS while pregnant today. And the clothing thing is a big rut for me too. It would be a dream come true to let Stacy and Clinton show me what to wear. Thanks for "complaining" and letting me realize I'm not the only one. :)

[Brynn]

I had this kind of a day (perhaps the last half week or so actually) but, guess what? God used YOU to encourage me. I recently borrowed "Living Simply" from my DGL at MOPS after hearing you speak in Dec. (Arvada MOPS). I'm about half way thru and you just address so many things that I needed to hear today. Things about Anger/Temper, Family, Choices. Oh, it was so good. My two tiny girls took a long nap today and I just soaked it all in. Thank you also for the Bible vs. list for children. I have been wanting something like this but didn't know where to start. Thank you so much for all of the ways the Lord is encouraging me and growing me as a frustrated young mom b/c of your book! Be encouraged in the midst of your PMS. Nap time is now over.

[Georgia Jan]

Joanne - I needed this post - I have been procrastinating about cleaning out my closet - whining about nothing to wear and God has used you to touch my heart.

I'm praying the PMS prayer too - and I've purposed to listen to more praise music.

It's like "Colorado and Georgia" are on the same mindset - could it just be that we are both WOMEN???

Much love to you, you are refreshingly GENUINE!

Much Love,
Georgia Jan

[Kristy]

Oh please post a menu plan - even for one week. I am in need of ideas! And ways to lower my grocery bill. I have a 13 1/2 yr old son who can eat us out of house and home! I buy snacks and they are gone in 2 days!

[Tammy S.]

I feel the same way about the clothes in my closet. I go in there and just want to turn around and go right back out! In fact, I have 2 bags filled with stuff ready to go to Goodwill. Gotta love those PMS days:)

Hope your car was full of praise music today!